6 April 2008

strange feeling

I read in a local paper of a 22 year old who died last week during a motor cycle accident. I have now found out who he is as I will be 22 this year so wondered if I knew the person. I have a stranger feeling that I did see him at school (it says he went to the same school), I even have a strange feeling that he was in my class during a level, although I am probably wrong.

I think the worst part of it is knowing that someone my age is dead. It was just an accident and now he is gone. I feel so sorry for him and for his parents. A young man with so much ahead of him. Its just such a shame.

13 March 2008


Around this time, 23 years ago, One of my brothers was born. He was born to early and died the following day. I of course don't remember this as I was born a year after him.

Its a strange thing for me to think about. In one way I feel as though there is something missing in my life, brothers who are close in age usually remain close throughout their life. It can feel as though half of me is missing (which would explain a lot).

In another way it has no effect on me. It might sound harsh, but he wasn't around when I was born. It has effected my family more then it has me as they all saw him and spent the little time they had together, I can only learn from what they tell me. And I do feel sorry for them. In some ways I miss my brother too.

My mum just told me that she should have given birth to him around this time, on this day. I dodn't know what to respond. I know that if he had survived then I wouldn't be here today as they wouldn't have wanted any more children. Its an odd thing to think that I have another brother, someone who I never met. In some weird way I owe my life to him. But I cant help but wonder how it might have been if we both survived, how our life's might have been different.

Hello Again!

Sorry I haven't been on in quite a while. Its been a busy time, the birth of my new nephew last month including a 5 day visit from him and his parents.

Currently I am trying to sort things out with the job centre so that I can work again, just doing a few hours a week to start off with. i have gotten a lovely mower (makes me feel manly, its red, my version of a sports car). So hopefully soon I will be doing a few local gardens. I'm slightly looking forward to it as I cant wait to have some freedom and also i last did peoples gardens when I was 16. But in some ways I'm not looking forward to it either as I sometimes find it a bit boring. But hey ho, a jobs a job.

That's all for now folks.