Well I am pleased to announce a new arrival to the family, I now have a niece. She was born at the weekend just before Christmas. But I can add to that news as my brother has also asked his girlfriend to marry him (she said yes).
It has been a busy few days, enjoyable and thought provoking. We have had our new arrival, the good news from my brother and shared a few days together as a family. Sadly there was some bad news a few weeks ago involving someone who was in my year at school. While on holiday he got shot in the head during a tragic accident. He is still alive but is expected to have disabilities. That really made me think, he is the same age as me and almost lost his life. Life is a wonderful yet fragile thing and my heart went out to his family this Christmas.
This year I got my nephews an electric guitar. Its there birthday present as well. I wanted to get them one as they had shown an interest and while there young its best to learn. The looks on there faces when they opened it up made it all worthwhile. It will be something I will never forget. Now I'm going to get some guitar lessons sorted, so who knows, I might be playing guitar with my nephews one day.
To all of you out there, I hope you had a happy and peaceful Christmas.
27 December 2007
2 December 2007
update
Sorry I haven't been on for so long, busy time of year.
well about two weeks back I had a bad cold/ flu type thing, hence the last post. Sadly colds and flu set me back. Anxiety problems usually start after a flu/ cold, so its not surprising that after you have one, anxiety gets worse.
Thankfully I have started going out again although it feels like i have started from the beginning. The first few times I went out, I was extremely nervous by the time I had gotten down the road. every time a person went past I would feel even worse.
All I can do is carry on with getting out and hope things ease off again soon. Although with a new niece and nephew on there way very soon, something tells me its going to get quite busy around here.
well about two weeks back I had a bad cold/ flu type thing, hence the last post. Sadly colds and flu set me back. Anxiety problems usually start after a flu/ cold, so its not surprising that after you have one, anxiety gets worse.
Thankfully I have started going out again although it feels like i have started from the beginning. The first few times I went out, I was extremely nervous by the time I had gotten down the road. every time a person went past I would feel even worse.
All I can do is carry on with getting out and hope things ease off again soon. Although with a new niece and nephew on there way very soon, something tells me its going to get quite busy around here.
10 November 2007
johnnie darko
There are times just like this when the urge to run away from life, from responsibilities, is at its greatest. Life has developed in to nothing. Freedom does not exist. Everything we do is monitored, every simple thing made complex, every detail enlarged. How long can we go picking at ourselves?
I'm going to work for myself, has soon as I have found out all the red tape and how it works.
Freedom is what you make of it. Money plays no part.People are what you make of them. Risks have to be taken in order to learn, so you can experience... life.
Right now all I want is to be alone, to have no one around me. Whats my greatest flaw? People, they are what bring the worst out of me, people.
I'm going to work for myself, has soon as I have found out all the red tape and how it works.
Freedom is what you make of it. Money plays no part.People are what you make of them. Risks have to be taken in order to learn, so you can experience... life.
Right now all I want is to be alone, to have no one around me. Whats my greatest flaw? People, they are what bring the worst out of me, people.
1 November 2007
Aghhhhhhh!
Well my TMA is not going very well. Nothing is inspiring me and im in a mood because its so cold and dark outside. i used to like the winter but Im really not enjoying it at all this year.
With my TMA (assignment) due in tomorrow, im just going to have to send in the rubbish I have produced. I did write a second one but even that wasn't any good.
sorry I haven't bin on any blogs recently, just snowed under trying to sort this course stuff out. All the exercises I have done turned out brilliantly only for the assignment to turn out rubbish. Im not too bothered about the marks for it, I would rather have known that i had produced a good quality piece of writing instead.
With my TMA (assignment) due in tomorrow, im just going to have to send in the rubbish I have produced. I did write a second one but even that wasn't any good.
sorry I haven't bin on any blogs recently, just snowed under trying to sort this course stuff out. All the exercises I have done turned out brilliantly only for the assignment to turn out rubbish. Im not too bothered about the marks for it, I would rather have known that i had produced a good quality piece of writing instead.
28 October 2007
did you see that
In the last post I put 'because i WAS agoraphobic', you see, my thinking has changed without me even knowing it. Lets hope this is the way forward.
changes
well I did spend 15 mins writing something only to press send and get the 'cant display page message'. Turned out my modem wanted a little break and didn't tell me. So I lost what I wrote, but never mind.
I have changed the 'about me' profile section. It used to say that I was agoraphobic, but I didn't like having that there. The thing about labels is you start living by them. Its like when my parents tell people that I didn't come with them because I was agoraphobic, really its because I would be bored stupid and wouldn't be the slightest bit interested going. That's why I don't like the term, it gets used for everything and takes over. so i wont be using that label. Hope this makes sense, it does to me.
I have changed the 'about me' profile section. It used to say that I was agoraphobic, but I didn't like having that there. The thing about labels is you start living by them. Its like when my parents tell people that I didn't come with them because I was agoraphobic, really its because I would be bored stupid and wouldn't be the slightest bit interested going. That's why I don't like the term, it gets used for everything and takes over. so i wont be using that label. Hope this makes sense, it does to me.
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